“For YOU created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful I know that full well.” Psalm 139: 13-14
What a feeling of joy and amazement it is to know that my very God who created the universe and everything in it is personally crafting together the child in my womb right now. It is because of this, that I do not worry about what will become of Baby Roberts. I know that the same God Who has taken care of me, will take care of what is nothing less than a miracle residing within my body.
This pregnancy wasn’t planned. Reed and I had plans for ourselves. I was on the verge of taking a new job that would require physical labor and skill that I can no longer do while carrying this little life. We planned to buy a brand new house. We planned to vacation to the mountains for our next anniversary. We planned to do many many things.
However, God had different plans for us.
I’ll admit, when I saw the positive result on the pregnancy test , I had a moment of meltdown. About a thousand different emotions and thoughts went through my head at the same time. Reed did a great job of calming me down and reassuring me we were going to be okay and be able to take care of our little one. After the initial meltdown, I was ecstatic. Sometimes, you never know how bad you want something until its given to you.
It’s definitely been something to get used to. I mean this in every way. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. Sometimes I sit back and think about the huge responsibility its going to be to raise a child from a baby to adulthood. This little person is going to depend on Reed and me for everything. It’s a lot to take in. However, I know this child is the one God is preparing specifically for Reed and I to raise, and I know with a lot of patience and prayer, we’re going to do fine.
The first trimester hasn’t been easy, though I know it could have been worse. With only 3 weeks left to go in my first trimester, I am finally starting to feel better. Every day for about 5 or 6 weeks, I had nausea, morning sickness (that lasted all day), and complete utter exhaustion. Finally, these symptoms are going away (excluding the exhaustion) and I have my appetite back and am starting to feel a little more like my normal self. Something else that caught me off guard was how fast I ”popped.” I didn’t think I would start showing so early, but at 10 weeks, I’m already in maternity clothes since my regular clothes no longer fit me.
The first ultrasound is scheduled for the 10th, and Reed and I are so excited to see our little guy or girl for the first time. We are so happy that God decided to bless us with this child now. Yes, we had a lot of plans. Yes, there’s a lot of things we wanted to do before that we can’t do now. We could have had children later. However, had all of our plans had followed through, had we of done the things we wanted, had we have had children later, we wouldn’t have THIS child. And really, right now, that’s what we want more than anything…
We are so excited too and I enjoyed reading your emotional journey with Reed in this blog. Hold on to your faith, prayers and excitement.
The 10th will be here soon:)
Love,
Carla
Amen! Will and I always say that we wouldn’t have Eila and we wouldn’t have Asher if we had waited and we can’t imagine life without them. I know you already love baby Rob so much and I know that no trip to the mountains or amount of extra income can replace such a special little one.
Erica, I know better than anyone the heart that you have and the love for GOD that you have. Dont worry, I have no doubt that you are going to make a great mom. Keep your faith in God and in prayer and he will guide you. I love you more than words can say and one day you will say the same thing to your daughter that I am saying to you now….I love you more than anything and I am so proud of the woman you have become. Love ya baby. Mom